.. Back to being positive..

Okay,

I was thinking, and, it is a hidden blessing that I did not get the promotion at work. I think that whatever is ahead of me for my future is way brighter than what it would be with that position. I can see a light at the end of a tunnel and I will not let that bring me down!

Well...

Well, I did not get the promotion at work, nor do I any longer have hopes of being 'next in line' for HR Manager... oh well.

Like my last blog said... the future... blah.

The Future

In many regards I do not want it to be the future. I do not want to lose the things that I currently hold dear that I know will not last forever. But then again, I want to progress, I want to see change for the better in other aspects of my life. I want a career. I want steady hours. I want a home of my own. I want a family.

The Future

The future,

as near as it is, as far as it seems,

is only there for a moment,

then it is gone, just as yesterday,

it will fade away to another day,

another story, someone elses dreams,

my goals lost or accomplished,

they only last for awhile,

then the cycle starts over,

with someone new...

The future,

as near as it is, as far as it seems,

is only there for a moment.

There is Hope.

Life is complicated. I like to take a step back every now and then to look at where I have come from, and where I am at now. I have the horrible downfall of remembering the things that made me incredibly happy and wishing for them to be relived, which is usually impossible, which causes me to be disappointed in life (which is silly).

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I am thankful for all of the bad events which have taken place in my past. I am thankful for the moves I have been forced to make, I am thankful for the deaths I have had to experience, I am thankful for the heart breaks I have had to endure, and I am thankful for every single tear that has been shed. If I could, I would NOT change anything in my past. I firmly believe that the past is what has created my present and my future. I believe that the awful things of the past were hidden blessings that were stepping stones to my current situation. I believe that everything happens for a reason. I hate to think about what ifs. I hate to think about what life would be like if I never moved in the 7^th grade in the middle of the night. I hate to think that I would not have the loving, supportive, awesome step-family that I now have if certain events never took place. I think that God blesses us with heart break sometimes.

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So, if you ever find yourself going through some type of change in your life, do not be discourage, but be thankful and look to the future, for in the future there lies life, and in life, there is hope.

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But, like I said… life is complicated, and sometimes we become down trot, so in those times, just hold firm to the faith that things will get better, and you will benefit from the bad times in some way, shape, or form.

Music.

There is something about the sound of a piano that simply soothes my soul. If I could, I would love to learn to play so I could simply drift away every single day. If you can play, you amaze me. How about those apples.

On a random side-note, I have two cousins who play wonderfully, and they amaze me with their skills.

Mother's Day

Today was Mother’s Day, a day to honor someone who we should all cherish, our mothers. I have a mother who has been through so very much in her lifetime, and has overcome so many obstacles. I have a mother who raised me in a way that is honorable and respectful. I have a mother who loves me regardless of what mistakes I make. I have a mother who has literally risked life and limb for me. I have a mother that I would do anything for!

So, as today comes to an end, remember your mother. Respect your mother, honor and love your mother. If it was not for her, there would be no you. Do not only respect, honor, love, and cherish her today, but do these things every day. Make every day “mother’s day”, make every day special for the one who loves you without limits.

ALSO, don't forget about any grandmothers, or other ladies in your life who are important figures in your life, or even mother figures!

Fitness: It doesn’t just happen.

Fitness: It doesn’t just happen.

So, in my journey to being healthy I have successfully kicked the habit of drinking soft drinks and sweet tea. Now my biggest battle is my junk food intake. I LOVE CANDY way too much, and I admit that. I am not willing to give up candy all together, but I do want to make a conscious effort to eat less candy. Also, I want to stop eating fast food as much. I hope to accomplish my goals of eating better by simply not allowing myself to buy as much junk food, and limiting myself to fast food to about once per week (when possible). This isn’t something that will be easy to accomplish, but I think that it is a necessary part of my next goal, which is to start exercising daily again! I already exercise several times a week, but not to the point that I would like to. Sure, I do walk almost every day (weather permitting), but walking is not all that your body needs to be healthy. You need to work your abdominal, arms, and various other parts of your body! I even think it is good to work on your flexibility! Do not settle on being average. Do not settle with letting your body go downhill and become gross and flabby and ewww… Yeah, that is how I sum it up. When you body is healthy, you are more likely to be mentally healthy in my opinion.

I know that my journey to fitness isn’t just going to happen overnight, but I know that only I can choose to live a healthy lifestyle and I am not willing to allow myself to fail.

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