I Desire...

I do not desire very much, but I do desire to be successful in my goals. I have faith that I will be accomplished when I am older, so I must put some actions to work to ensure that my faith is not returned void.

A Year...

So, I was thinking about the past year of my life, and well… it has been interesting. Within the past year I have experienced many things for the first time, some which were good and others which were awful. Some of the things that come to the top of my mind for the past year include:

First Time…

-Getting a car put into my name.
-Getting insurance in my name.
-Driving my own car to the beach.
-Renting a hotel room at the beach.
-Getting a job that pays over $16k/year.
-Staying away from home on my own for a couple weeks.
-Putting in a two weeks’ notice.
-Lost someone I considered a friend to death.
-Lost a grandmother to death.
-Served as a pallbearer.
-And I’m sure there are more things that I’ve done that are firsts for me, but I simply can’t think of them at the moment (or don’t want to post about them).

So, I was thinking about all of these things that have been firsts for me this year, and I realize that most of these things have happened within the past few months and I think to myself “WOW, that is crazy”. It is wild to think that things happen so quickly, all I know is this: Enjoy your life because it is short. Unexpected things happen; Live to the best and most fulfilling way possible, do not have any regrets.

WHERE HAS THE TIME GONE!?

So, I was just reading some old blog entries from last year, and it seems like just yesterday that I was writing these things. I am amazed by how fast time has flown and in a way it worries me and inspires me.

Firstly, I am amazed by how fast time has flown. Events that took place years ago seem like just yesterday. I remember my little cousins as being smaller. I remember my puppy as being, well, a puppy still. I feel as if I just got out of high school, started college, took my first flight lesson, went to Mexico, and graduated college.

I am worried by how fast time goes because I do not want to miss out on things in life. I feel like that I may have wasted some time, and that sucks because I can not get that time back. It is simply gone, never to return. I feel worried about my relationship aspects because I have none, and I am quickly getting older... and honestly, I want to meet someone and start a life of my own before I get much older but I fear this is not going to happen.

I feel inspired because I know that time flies by quickly. Because I know this, I feel as if I should seize every opportunity that I can in life. I feel like I should take as many trips as possible, see as many things as I can, learn as much as I can, spend as much time as I can with my family and friends and the ones that I love, and I feel that I must took life by the horns and make it what I know it can be. I feel inspired simply because I do not want to miss out on anything. I know that it will seem like only a moment when I'm old and looking back at these days, and I do not want to look back and wish that I had done more.

New Job

Things I've tried new this year... in the past like... month or two.

I've tried Kayaking and I love it.

I've tried water skiing and well, I like it... but it doesn't like me as much as I like it. I think my friends get enjoyment out of watching me try to ski.... oh well, I enjoy it at least. Who cares if I look stupid lol. I just gotta learn to keep my dang feet together... that is my newest downfall (literally, this causes a not so pleasant split and then, falling down haha).

I'm now in the mood to try kayaking in a larger river with some larger currents and white water. That would be awesome!

I also want to go to the beach soon... I hopefully will get to in a couple of weeks from now. I hope so, I really want to get in the ocean at least once this year. I love the ocean! It is a very peaceful feeling for me when I lay back and let the waves wash me away and drag me up the shore. I love it.

ALSO! I have high hopes of becoming full time at work... Who knows if this will happen or not, but I really am hoping that it will. If this happens that will mean that I will be bringing in an extra ... oh say... almost $7,000.00 a year more than I am currently making (which is way better than I have ever earned before!).

I also have high hopes of starting to fly again very, very soon. I can not wait for this. I love flying and I've missed it pretty badly.

I kind of doubt anyone read this, and that is okay... I mainly write these to amuse myself. Some people sit somewhere and think, I use writing as a method for me to think, and that is what I have done here tonight.

It has been awhile, blogger.

It has been awhile since I have blogged, so I figured I would write a blog entry now.

A few years ago I was constantly emailing, texting, and instant messaging people. I enjoyed it and it helped to pass my time. However, in the past year or so I have drastically cut down on this, and I don't like it. It seems that the people that I once communicated with on a regular basis has just sort of vanished. Of course they have not vanished literally, they have just moved on and forgotten about me (haha, that sounds pathetic). But in all seriousness, I really do miss texting, emailing, and instant messaging my friends and family on a regular basis with actually meaningful conversations.

Things change, sometimes for the best... sometimes they simply just change.

Oh well.

LIFE

Life…

So, the newest thing in my life is the simple fact that I got a new job. I will be working for a bank as a teller starting very soon. I actually will be leaving July 5 to go away to do two weeks training for my new job. I’m excited to start the job and start making some decent money. I hope that this can turn into some sort of a career and take me places. They say there is room for advancement, and that is my goal; to advance.

Ironically enough I received a phone call one day last week from the TSA offering me the job that I’ve been in the process of trying to get for over a year. This job I also believe could have taken me places, but, I weighted my pros and cons of the two jobs and decided that the bank job is overall a better option, and I hope that this is the right choice. So, I had to tell the TSA that I found another job and had to decline the job offer, which felt really weird considering all of the effort I put into getting to that point. I just have to have faith that I made the right choice for my future. This wasn't really easy and I still have thoughts about it, but I’m sure whatever happens I will be provided for in the future because I feel that the job at the bank was a God thing honestly, and who am I to question that.

So, now I’m just preparing to go away for two week s to train for my new job. I’m excited to get in there and learn what I need to learn and start the job. Luckily I will be able to come home both weekends during my training. This should be pretty interesting.

Other than work, I get older this month; in just a couple weeks actually. On July 18 I will turn 23 years old… yikes. I cannot believe I will be that old. I don’t want to be that old! It is time to start making some serious changes in my life in order to get somewhere. My goal is to be out on my own by the time I’m 25. I really need to find a relationship too! It is not good for man to be alone!

Fathers Day

Fathers day is this coming Sunday, and I would like to take a second to blog about this incredible day and what it means to me.

Everyone has a father, regardless of where he is at. Some peoples fathers have passed away and other have simply drifted away, while other people have fathers who are there to support and love them.

My earthly father passed away years ago and after that I was blessed with a grandfather who not only allowed me to live with him for awhile but also was, and still is, a father figure to me. I have a grandfather who considers me his son and for that I am blessed. The ironic part in that situation is the fact that I am his namesake too. Also, my middle name means "Gift from God"... and he has told me several times that I am like the son he never had. It is funny how things work out. I honestly do not believe that their are any events in life that are unplanned or unexpected. I think that for everything there is a reason.

I also have a wonderful step-father who I respect and love just as if he was my fleshly father. He has accepted me into his home and his heart just as if I were his own son, and once again, for this I am thankful. I feel blessed beyond words for the people that I have in my life, especially when it comes to father-figures.

I also have other wonderful grandfathers who I admire for what they have taught me over the years.

Next and foremost, I would like to address the one who has always been there for me as a father. A father that has never been angry at me for something that I did not deserve. A father that never holds anything against me. A father that forgives me for whatever I do, no matter how bad, simply when I ask him. He actually puts it as far away as the east is from the west. I want to mention the Father that saved my soul, the Father that brought me out of a life of sadness and sorrow. I want to thank and honor my Father, God. My Abba Father.

So, if you have a father that is still living take a moment to tell them that you love and respect them. If you have a father who has passed on, or a father that has drifted away, find the person in your life that has been a father-figure for you and let them know how you feel. Show them the respect that they deserve.

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Also, in my fathers day note I would like to state that one day I hope to be blessed with the honor of being called father. I think this would be one of life's most rewarding and awesome experiences that a man could ask for.