Since no one reads this...

Since no one reads this, I shall rant.


One thing that drives me absolutely nuts is for someone to not respond to me.  Want to know what drives me nuts ever more than that?  Well, I'll tell you anyway.  It drives me nuts when someone responds to with me a meaningless short response that has not feeling or emotion attached to it.  I do NOT like empty, void, vain responses OR people. 


I feel like I have invested my heart, mind, and soul into some people for years and they simply have decided that they do not care.  At least that is the impression that is left by their void-ness.  I do not like that.  


Oh well.  That is life.  Sometimes we feel like we have lost the most important things ever to us, but we must carry on.


LOL.  

You Won't See This...

I feel that the season has passed.
I feel that this time is up.
But I feel it is early,
And for this, it hurts.

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A Note To Vent.

Wanna hear something that pisses me off? Someone standing in front of me telling me that I don't know what something is like, because they think I've never experienced it. Excuse me, do you know everything that has happened to me? Heck no. If I say I know what something is like, I sure the heck know what it is like. Why else would I say I do? I'm not stupid, immature, or naive. I've lived a life far beyond what most people think I have. So yeah, that pisses me off.

Two Things that Annoy Me.

In the spirit of Christmas, I will share two things that annoy me.

Firstly, slow drivers. I often would like to take a speed limit sign and smack a slower driver up side the head. Maybe then, just maybe they would see the speed limit.

Secondly, people who don't respond to messages. These messages can be either text messages, emails, voice mails, online discussion board messages, FB Messages, or ANY other type of messages; even face to face messages. People who are too busy or too rude to take a second to respond and acknowledge the fact that I sent them a message really annoy me. I mean seriously, I wanna smack them people up side the head too. Have some manners or GTFO of my life. How about that.

A World too "Connected"...

When watching a video put out by Microsoft that is sort of like the vision of what they would like the future to be like with all types of technology that acts as touch screens, I actually feel anxious because I think a world this connected to technology would suck… which is weird, because I love technology. But I think that too much technology in our lives could be a very, very bad thing.

Here is a link to a video which is awesome, very futuristic, unrealistic if you ask me, and yet… possible at the same time. I would not want the world to be this technological. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a6cNdhOKwi0&eurl=http%3A%2F%2Fmashable.com%2F2011%2F10%2F27%2Fmicrosoft-near-future-video%2F&feature=player_embedded

I get knocked down; but I get up again.

As an older popular song goes, "...I get knocked down, but I get up again, your never going to keep me down...", relates to my life it seems at times. I have struggles and temptations that I try to overcome but at times fail and get knocked down, but thank the Lord I can get back up again and press onward to overcoming the faults that I have.

I keep telling myself that one day I will be freed from the burdens and temptations that hinder me, but I seem to find myself backsliding at times and that quiet honestly sucks.

Now, I'm not going into detail on my struggles, as for that is no ones business besides mine and my Heavenly Fathers. But I will tell you this, I believe that many of us (people in general) have a dark passenger, a secret side, something that we are not happy about and do not approve of that keeps us bogged down.

This is okay though, because we are reminded in the Holy Word that "¹³ No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it" (1 Corinthians 10:13). It is a great and uplifting though to think that God will not give us more than we are capable of handling. This does not mean that we will overcome every situation that comes out way, it simply means that anything that comes our way we have the option of overcoming if we desire to overcome. We are told that we will be given a way to get out of the situation which we find ourselves in, but, it is up to us to work at it and seek out help and solutions.

It is kind of like falling into a hole which has a ladder set up to get out, but in order to get out we must actually go over to the ladder and climb up rather than expect that we will be carried up the ladder and out of the hole without any effort on our behalf.

So, yeah...

Yeah, so, what annoys me this week? Not being able to communicate with my brothers. I am beyond annoyed that I have no clue where one brother is to get in touch with him, and then the other brother... well, lets just say that there are forces that are keeping us from communicating. SO WONDERFUL! NOT!!!

It really does suck though. I mean, when I need someone to talk to, or when I just want to talk... who can I always call? It was my brothers. I could call them and just talk about stupid stuff, or about nothing in general just to have someone on my level to talk to.... but now I can't do that and honestly it bothers me. I can't wait until things get settled with some 'issues' that they are dealing with so that their lives are cleaned up and things are better for them. I hate to see them struggle and I know that their lives haven't been easy because I've lived the very same life that they have... with the only exception being the choices that we have made along the way. That is the only difference between us, our choices.

So, if anyone out there is reading this... know one thing. Your choices, the things that you decide on, regardless of how minor they may seem at the moment can change and impact your life and other lives in ways that you cannot see in the moment. Make wise choices. Do not be foolish.