I get knocked down; but I get up again.

As an older popular song goes, "...I get knocked down, but I get up again, your never going to keep me down...", relates to my life it seems at times. I have struggles and temptations that I try to overcome but at times fail and get knocked down, but thank the Lord I can get back up again and press onward to overcoming the faults that I have.

I keep telling myself that one day I will be freed from the burdens and temptations that hinder me, but I seem to find myself backsliding at times and that quiet honestly sucks.

Now, I'm not going into detail on my struggles, as for that is no ones business besides mine and my Heavenly Fathers. But I will tell you this, I believe that many of us (people in general) have a dark passenger, a secret side, something that we are not happy about and do not approve of that keeps us bogged down.

This is okay though, because we are reminded in the Holy Word that "¹³ No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it" (1 Corinthians 10:13). It is a great and uplifting though to think that God will not give us more than we are capable of handling. This does not mean that we will overcome every situation that comes out way, it simply means that anything that comes our way we have the option of overcoming if we desire to overcome. We are told that we will be given a way to get out of the situation which we find ourselves in, but, it is up to us to work at it and seek out help and solutions.

It is kind of like falling into a hole which has a ladder set up to get out, but in order to get out we must actually go over to the ladder and climb up rather than expect that we will be carried up the ladder and out of the hole without any effort on our behalf.

So, yeah...

Yeah, so, what annoys me this week? Not being able to communicate with my brothers. I am beyond annoyed that I have no clue where one brother is to get in touch with him, and then the other brother... well, lets just say that there are forces that are keeping us from communicating. SO WONDERFUL! NOT!!!

It really does suck though. I mean, when I need someone to talk to, or when I just want to talk... who can I always call? It was my brothers. I could call them and just talk about stupid stuff, or about nothing in general just to have someone on my level to talk to.... but now I can't do that and honestly it bothers me. I can't wait until things get settled with some 'issues' that they are dealing with so that their lives are cleaned up and things are better for them. I hate to see them struggle and I know that their lives haven't been easy because I've lived the very same life that they have... with the only exception being the choices that we have made along the way. That is the only difference between us, our choices.

So, if anyone out there is reading this... know one thing. Your choices, the things that you decide on, regardless of how minor they may seem at the moment can change and impact your life and other lives in ways that you cannot see in the moment. Make wise choices. Do not be foolish.

I Desire...

I do not desire very much, but I do desire to be successful in my goals. I have faith that I will be accomplished when I am older, so I must put some actions to work to ensure that my faith is not returned void.

A Year...

So, I was thinking about the past year of my life, and well… it has been interesting. Within the past year I have experienced many things for the first time, some which were good and others which were awful. Some of the things that come to the top of my mind for the past year include:

First Time…

-Getting a car put into my name.
-Getting insurance in my name.
-Driving my own car to the beach.
-Renting a hotel room at the beach.
-Getting a job that pays over $16k/year.
-Staying away from home on my own for a couple weeks.
-Putting in a two weeks’ notice.
-Lost someone I considered a friend to death.
-Lost a grandmother to death.
-Served as a pallbearer.
-And I’m sure there are more things that I’ve done that are firsts for me, but I simply can’t think of them at the moment (or don’t want to post about them).

So, I was thinking about all of these things that have been firsts for me this year, and I realize that most of these things have happened within the past few months and I think to myself “WOW, that is crazy”. It is wild to think that things happen so quickly, all I know is this: Enjoy your life because it is short. Unexpected things happen; Live to the best and most fulfilling way possible, do not have any regrets.

WHERE HAS THE TIME GONE!?

So, I was just reading some old blog entries from last year, and it seems like just yesterday that I was writing these things. I am amazed by how fast time has flown and in a way it worries me and inspires me.

Firstly, I am amazed by how fast time has flown. Events that took place years ago seem like just yesterday. I remember my little cousins as being smaller. I remember my puppy as being, well, a puppy still. I feel as if I just got out of high school, started college, took my first flight lesson, went to Mexico, and graduated college.

I am worried by how fast time goes because I do not want to miss out on things in life. I feel like that I may have wasted some time, and that sucks because I can not get that time back. It is simply gone, never to return. I feel worried about my relationship aspects because I have none, and I am quickly getting older... and honestly, I want to meet someone and start a life of my own before I get much older but I fear this is not going to happen.

I feel inspired because I know that time flies by quickly. Because I know this, I feel as if I should seize every opportunity that I can in life. I feel like I should take as many trips as possible, see as many things as I can, learn as much as I can, spend as much time as I can with my family and friends and the ones that I love, and I feel that I must took life by the horns and make it what I know it can be. I feel inspired simply because I do not want to miss out on anything. I know that it will seem like only a moment when I'm old and looking back at these days, and I do not want to look back and wish that I had done more.

New Job

Things I've tried new this year... in the past like... month or two.

I've tried Kayaking and I love it.

I've tried water skiing and well, I like it... but it doesn't like me as much as I like it. I think my friends get enjoyment out of watching me try to ski.... oh well, I enjoy it at least. Who cares if I look stupid lol. I just gotta learn to keep my dang feet together... that is my newest downfall (literally, this causes a not so pleasant split and then, falling down haha).

I'm now in the mood to try kayaking in a larger river with some larger currents and white water. That would be awesome!

I also want to go to the beach soon... I hopefully will get to in a couple of weeks from now. I hope so, I really want to get in the ocean at least once this year. I love the ocean! It is a very peaceful feeling for me when I lay back and let the waves wash me away and drag me up the shore. I love it.

ALSO! I have high hopes of becoming full time at work... Who knows if this will happen or not, but I really am hoping that it will. If this happens that will mean that I will be bringing in an extra ... oh say... almost $7,000.00 a year more than I am currently making (which is way better than I have ever earned before!).

I also have high hopes of starting to fly again very, very soon. I can not wait for this. I love flying and I've missed it pretty badly.

I kind of doubt anyone read this, and that is okay... I mainly write these to amuse myself. Some people sit somewhere and think, I use writing as a method for me to think, and that is what I have done here tonight.

It has been awhile, blogger.

It has been awhile since I have blogged, so I figured I would write a blog entry now.

A few years ago I was constantly emailing, texting, and instant messaging people. I enjoyed it and it helped to pass my time. However, in the past year or so I have drastically cut down on this, and I don't like it. It seems that the people that I once communicated with on a regular basis has just sort of vanished. Of course they have not vanished literally, they have just moved on and forgotten about me (haha, that sounds pathetic). But in all seriousness, I really do miss texting, emailing, and instant messaging my friends and family on a regular basis with actually meaningful conversations.

Things change, sometimes for the best... sometimes they simply just change.

Oh well.