To Be Kind...

To Be Kind… (It is hard sometimes)

Some of you know me better than others know me, obviously. Sometimes I have a temper, and I’m not very nice. When I need to be, I’m rather firm in my exhibit at of discontent. I am usually pretty easy going, and easy to get along with… but today, I felt as if I wanted to give someone the better half of my mind, and more. Should I do this, I asked myself… What should I do? I know that I really want to tell the person off who verbally agreed to lease my friends and I a campsite that has not been used in “4 years” by the previous lessees (which happens to be family of the lady in question of being stupid). We were told that the ‘lady’ may want to lease the campsite again after all, how ironic after no prior interest, on top of it being promised to us. It really p’s me off that this person has the nerve to not only promise us this spot, but not to collect our payment when we were ready to pay, and then this pops up and bam things change. Not to mention, where the majority of my annoyance comes from. Not only was the campsite verbally agreed upon to be ours, but the lady who is the leaser showed my friend the boundaries of the campsite, and then, my friends and I camped there last week. We have had time to get our hopes up and then have it become finalized to be ‘ours’, and I even took my time and cleaned some junk up on the site which was trashy and needed to be hauled off (we had it ready to haul off, not yet taken, just pilled in one central location). But yeah, this really annoyed me because we had already invested emotionally, verbally, and physically into this campsite only to be rejected after it was promised to us. WTF? Yeah. If I were not of the moral standards of which I try to with-hold, I would go to the campsite and re-trash it. I would destroy the flowers which we were careful to avoid because the landlady wants to come and retrieve. I would LOVE to throw all of the large pieces of crappy trash that I collected into the pile all around the campsite to leave it more like I found it…. And then a little worse than it was. I would love to destroy whatever I could. Spiteful thought filled my head… but, I know this would accomplish nothing… and then we would be totally out of a chance to get the campsite if something happens to change… again. I know that it is not “The Christian” thing to do. Stupid morals hahaha. Just kidding. I’m happy that I have some moral code to live by, otherwise, I’d be a huge jerk and probably regret stuff more often than I do currently (because I resist).

This has been my random rant about stupid-ness. GERRRR

But, on the bright side, perhaps this is some kind of protection from something. Who knows what could happen down the road in the future at the campsite, which we are being spared from. Maybe we will find a spot that is way nicer and beyond our beliefs currently. Maybe this is just a way not to have a mistake take place. Who knows… Just trying to find the bright side in a situation that otherwise would have me up in someone’s face.